New shift.. 3am-8am, heee no more serving customers.

Pat, 1 of 2 only friends will be here May 5th-ish

Parents leave next Monday for Cuba..

Had a credit on my Visa..and needed some things. Went out last weekend and coulda bought Capcom vs snk 2.. or was it marvel vs capcom 2? either or..only 9$..shoulda got it but my ps2 is crap and there was too many people in the tiny EB. Vice City stories was there too..hmm maybe Ill see if they're both there tomorrow..
--Anyway.. learned of my credit yesterday so bought a slimline ps2 from my work and a new discman cuz both those products are dying on me here.. Man slimline is sooooo tiny. After having that huge box since 01 then this tiny little thing..weird.

Some were curious of my "nightmare/terror" thing of the other night.. while I won't go into detail.. I'll steal a cue from Nisha and use the "dreammood" results for that which I remember somewhat.

""To see your fingers in you dream, symbolizes physical and mental dexterity. They indicate manipulation, action and non-verbal communication.
To dream that your fingers are injured or have been chopped off, denotes your anxieties about your ability to accomplish some demanding task or perform in some waking situation.""

""To dream of your hands, represents your relationship to those around you and how you connect with the world. Hands serve as a form of communication. A fist is symbolic of aggression and power. Generally, left hands symbolize feminine, receptive qualities, while right hands symbolize masculine, active attributes.

To dream that you hands are injured, denotes an attack on your ego.
To see blood on your hands, signifies that you are experiencing some sort of guilt. ""

""Black symbolizes the unknown, unconscious, danger, mystery, darkness, death, mourning, hate or malice. ""

""To dream that you are riding in an automobile, signifies that even in pleasant situations, you will still be restless and uneasy.""

""To see broken glass in your dream, signifies a change in your life. You will find that a situation will come to an abrupt and untimely end. ""


And so on.. :( So much negativity in it..twas horrifying.

location: room mood: discontent music: E Chiove - Andrea Boccelli tags: dreams, fear, nightmares

Comment and I will:
1 - Tell you why I friended you.
2 - Associate you with a song/film.
3 - Tell a random fact about you.
4 - Tell a first memory about you.
5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 - Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours [if it pertains].
8 - In retort, you must spread this disease in your LJ.

New computer yaaaay, windows vista, bah. Ah well not so bad getting used to it now.
long story involved with setup but anyway.. got it Thursday and could use it so Friday morning..like 1:30am cuz I had to be for work for 3am that day.. I got up with the pure intention of watching tv. I have NOT sat down and officially watched tv since February of 2006. That's quite a while.. and even back then it was only for a few shows an hour or two a day at most.. But yeah..twas weird at any rate.
at work for 3am so I could do a safety meeting thing since we're a high risk store all our accidents and whatnot..us and bakery. So We've a big meeting today at 6pm (my bedtime :( ) to work everything out or whatever, review safety procedures and whatnot.. gotta find naptime in before since I'm back at work tomorrow at usually 5:30am.


That is all.

location: chair mood: blah music: Little Sister - QotSA

Part one of my letters to celebrities, nothing special and will probably at very best, last to about part 4, after I already ran out of ideas from part 1..

Today's letters will be sent out to:

Dear Christina Aguilera,

Please stop making 'music.'

Love, Beege Torance.
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Dear Evanescence,

I think you guys are almost ok but that lady you have with you is a whore. I'm sorry to say but it's what I believe. I mean..you guys were GREAT back when you were Lacuna Coil..wait..
Anyway, try for someone that doesn't have the voice of a gnarled old cat who tried in vain to be an opera singer but failed horribly. You might just sell a few records then.

Sincerely, Beege Torance.

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Dear Slipknot,

Fuck you and your 17 band members, you whiney overtrying scumfucks.


As always, Beege Torance.



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Dear My Chemical Roamnce,


I thought I'd change gears a moment and write soemthing nice for a change. Um... well... there's...no... ahhh.... Right... oh yes! There was a fellow that loved your band at these forums I used to frequent, he got banned for being an idiot like most of the people that fancey your 'music.' That's good eh? If only you could ban people from life..so sad.


Thinking of you, Beege Torance.

location: home mood: PArtly Cloudy music: Stuff that doesn't suck tags: celebirites, letters

Today is a day of mourning. I have my reasons I suggest you all find your own.

Something to do they float around I do them every now and again.. haven't made an entry in forever..still no story :( I'm at a loss, sorry..


SIGHT

What is the first thing you usually see when you get up in the morning?
Wall.

Do you wear anything to correct your vision?
Spectacles.

What are some of your favorite television programs?
Nothing on tv now. "Then," Sliders, Red Dwarf, Xena, Hercules, Due South, Early Edition, etc

In no particular order, name 5 of your favorite movies of all time.
Princess Bride, Pump Up The Volume, Snatch, Akira, Mallrats

What movie have you seen the most? How many times?
Princess Bride, maybe.. I watched several movies a lot as a kid too, like Ace Ventura over and over again multiple viewings.

Do you collect anything?
cds, dvds, games, movie stubs, business cards, any kind of card, the little plastic table you get in pizza boxes (not anymore), Wes' used computers?

What kind of art do you like (even if it’s not hanging in your house)?
Everything from painting and sculpting, to pop art or random mashing of things together, sketching etc..all arts.

SOUND

What is the first sound you usually hear in the morning?
Cat, alarm, toilet flushing upstairs...

What are you hearing right now?
Millencolin - Twenty Two... Was my anthem last year but now I'm 23..

If you had to pick only five CDs (yes, ONLY FIVE – and we’ll assume for
the sake of this question that there are no MP3 players) to take with
you on a road trip, which would they be?
A Process of Belief - Bad Religion (hell I'd go for five by them)
Morning View - Incubus
Archetype - Fear Factory
This is it - The Strokes
Happy 2b Hardcore Volume 7


Name a CD or song in your music collection that you think the rest of us have not heard.
Just one? pfft. "Alien Fashion Show - Self Titled"

Is there a genre of music you absolutely cannot stand to listen to?
Nay

How have your musical tastes changed over the years?
Let's say I aquired 80+ cds in one year in 2002 and it only expanded since then.

Aside from music, what are your favorite sounds?
Accents, lawn mowers, birds and wildlife, cicadas, kitties, running bathwater

SMELL

What is the first scent you usually smell in the morning?
Sleep and boy smell...

What do you smell right now?
Nothin.. pizza if I go near it.

What scents take you back to your childhood?
Make sense with incence.

What perfume/cologne/body spray do you wear (if any)?
None..on rare ocassions whatever mother brings home from work at discount.

Are there any scents that you like that you think aren’t typical? (Some people like the smell of gasoline, for example.)
Nope

Other than the thing(s) listed in the previous answer, what are some of your favorite scents?
Freshly cut grass, freshly baked or cooked anything, spices, autumn, snow, winter, cinnamon, vanilla

Besides the obvious, are there certain smells that make you feel sick?
Fast Food places and Subway spices..

TOUCH

What is the first thing you usually touch in the morning?
Face area..hair.

Do you have high thread-count sheets?
High who whats-it?

What is your favorite shirt made of?
Tears swen from a broken hearted maiden.

With the exception of the obvious, what part(s) of your body do you love having touched?
Light scalp massage..nothing quite like it.. I don't get touched.

What part(s) of your body do you least like to be touched?
I wouldn't know, I don't get touched.

Are you ticklish? If so, where?
Standard areas a bit yeah.

Do you enjoy popping bubblewrap?
I guess sometimes.

TASTE

What is the first thing you usually taste in the morning?
Bile?

How do you take your coffee/tea?
N/A

What is a typical lunch for you?
There is no 'typical.'

What food will you absolutely not eat?
I refuse to eat anything green? I'm very picky.

What is the strangest thing you’ve eaten?
Moose burger, deer sausage, something I thought was somethign else.

Lollipop or bubble gum?
Gum, the stick on the pop doesn't chew well.

You’re about to be executed. What’s your last meal?
Ribs probably..n cheesecake.

BODY

How tall are you?
5'8 :(

How much do you weigh?
Too much

Do you exercise regularly? If so, what do you do?
Did for a while then..things happened.

Are you or have you ever been a vegetarian?
Hell no!

If you could magically, instantly change one part of your body, what would it be?
The whole part.

Any vices?
Probably.

Do you have any chronic medical conditions?
Nay

MIND

Did you graduate high school?
Yesh - "honours"..which just means somewhere between 75% and 85%.. pfft.. probably JUST got 75%.

Do you have any college under your belt? A degree?
No.

What is your IQ?
Never really been tested, don't trust IQ tests. Mine's probably 57.

What was your best (not favorite) subject in school?
Best? Probably math or sciences.

Are you more book-smart or street-wise?
Neither. I may be dumb but I ain't smart.

Name something you taught yourself.
Just about everything I do on the computer, asian studies, writing, RPing..being a "therapist."

Do you have a mental disorder?
Probably.. End up a sociopath I'd not bet against it. Inferiority complex, etc.

HEART

Are you in love?
Thought I was n used to be.

Do you have a crush on someone?
Not really.

Do you fall in love easily?
Nay. Small and sudden fixations for a while but nothing too lasting.

What things do you believe are most important in a partner?
Trust, honesty, communication and unbridled affection. Equality.

What is the most romantic thing you have done for someone?
If I had the chances and not stricken to words and ideas..lots. Lot of gifts and kind words. Umbrellas for her when it rained, roses for co-workers on Valentine's Day, etc >is hopeless<

What is the most romantic thing someone has done for you?
Not a whole lot. I'm a giver and end up not getting returns so not a taker by default.

Describe the perfect kiss.
..Open..mouth? It's so much more open than closed mouth...

SOUL

Do you believe in (any) God?
I believe in kami.

Do you meditate or pray regularly?
Used to meditate, don't much anymore. I do have times where I clear my mind completely though. no thoughts.

Have you read religious texts other than the Bible?
Yes. I even know the Shahada.

What do you think happens after we die?
I hate this question. The abyssmal unknown.

Have you ever witnessed something you thought was a “miracle”?
Small instances that were just luck or coincendences. Nothing miracle worthy.

What do you do to relax, calm down, find your center, etc?
Pure fury happens rarely if ever. It involves catharsis through destruction. Other than the rarieties things dun bother me.

What kinds of things bring you absolute joy?
Getting work done, not doing it, just getting it done. Gaming, juice sleep, music...

location: here mood: cranky music: Serious Sam tse - Confession

Yeah, it's like I'm underwater now.. anyway, might as well do the obligatory "Year end synopsis" as the new year is already here, lemme start off with how I rung that in shall we?
Actually, lets see how it's normally done.
Boring day of lazing followed by Chinese food for supper a movie or two father rents for the family which is just the three of us now.. Going our seperate ways, mother falling asleep around 10 or 11.. me in my room doing something then looking at the clock, "Oh, it's 12:05..huh"

The way this year differed was my only friend drug me out to a show. 6 small time Canadian bands covering 6 'big named' groups..although I have no idea who the FUVK "T-Rex" is..but they never got to play. Hope was loud and distorted playing Bad Religion, and the pit was small and well maintained most behaved themselves really well. the guys doing Fu Manchu were quite nice, dudes doing Chixdiggit were ok, didn't stay for Greenday. Motely Crue dudes did a good job and the openers, like 14 year olds were not bad for openers..doing White Zombie. Really wasn't my scene though, off to the side going deaf nestled into the chairs and tables set aside to make room for people to be near the stage.
LEaving was due to lack of full enjoyment and because for the last 2 or 3 bands I had to use the facilities, and like most people, public facilities are a no no.. So I waited and waited, and knew I couldn't take Greenday, in more ways than one :P So I said bye to me mate n left. New Years 2am, cab = near impossible so I started walking trying not to think of running water, through the frigid night air. An hour it took me to get home..hour of walking interspersed with running jogging and skipping. Yes skipping, that's the kinda guy I am.
Sadly the urge was overpowering so upon the last snaking street before the final stretch of my home block whose road is candy cane shaped.. I took a 'liberty.' I'll let you mull over what that may mean, and it lasted 3 minutes..amazing eh?
Tonight's memorable quotes:
"Wheeeeeee!"
"So, which band is covering Queen again?"
"I don't think they played loud enough........what?!"
"Hey how's it going, nice to see you, it's been years man, yay, whacha been up to, oh yeah...... Who the fuck was that guy?!"

So back home now typing this.. Now to recap the year eh?

So year recap..twqas the best and worst year of my existence I would say.
I found the MOST important thing ever in my entire 23 years of being, invested every thought and plan and goal into it, only to have it taken away. To say I was 'in a state' would be poor practice. In addition to that I claimed a new job that sucked but I got out and into the awsome Electronics department.. Bad luck ran parralel at this point. The summer of loss it was and mourning difficult.
I nurtured some old 'friendships', made new ones.. became an authourity figure, gained a fangirl, gained 'Grand Advisor' status, gained a new special treasure to fawn over, lost my only other friend to the military as well, only to have him returned many months later, stuck in another rut in another poor working establishment, began life alterations but taken away as well, KOF 2003 memories, Final Fantasy memories... All in all, I'd say it was probably the worst year of my life. It was an EVEN year too, which is distressing.. this stuff shoulda happened the previous year or this year I hate odd numbers and usually odd numbered years are bad.. 2 bad years in a row, oh well, one may never know. Maybe I'll win the lottery or have a plane fall on me.

location: snare drum mood: no icon for deaf music: ringing in my ears

I told you Donny!~ suck it! Vader n Lancelot :P

What Fantasy Archetype Are you?
The Traitor You are the traitor! You remind me of Smeagol (Lord Of The Rings), Lancelot (Arthurian Legend), Darth Vader (Star Wars), Mr. Tumnus (Narnia), Hunter (Neverwhere), Wormtail (Harry Potter) and Michael Cypher (Wizard's First Rule). You are often an average or okay guy, but for whatever reason you end up betraying the forces of light on their quest. Don't let the glory of the Unlikely Hero or maybe a crush on the Pillar-of-Strength Love Interest tempt you to evil! Sometimes you make a turnaround and fix your mistakes, which is good, because you invariably feel bad about what you've done. Take things a little easier, it'll help.
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I made my own damn survey/char sheet/stat board thing... so there! :P

Beege Torance
23
Canada
5'8
Brown hair, Brown eyes
Int: 55 IQ
Hero Complex: level 1
Ability: 0
Skills: -1
Manliness: -3
Strength: 2
Cowardice: 42
Neurosis: 57
Special Skill: Hamburger and fries punch!
Fangirls: 1
Sociability: Level 1
Amicability: -5
Anti-social: Level 10
Knowledge: Able to retain wholly unuseful facts and stats.
Self Critical: Immeasureable
Social Status: 2%
Technique: Able to act sincere and faux empathize, a sociopath.
Greatest Assest: Apathy
What He Brings To The Party: Biliousness and negative rating. Best to leave him with the Squonks.

location: Smelling bad mood: pessimistic music: Antennas - Rancid

Sorry, in a bit of a funk I guess.. I'll haveta MAKE myself soemtime soon, been a bit odd this week and father's birthday was today. Boiled frosting on orange cake mmm.. Gave'em a Santokou knife.
Good point, I may not have to serve customers anymore. Put me on the midnight to 8am shift now. Which means I can listen to my lil radio that plays cds when I work after hours yay.
Bad is as mom said, "You'll never meet anyone, raar raarr!" I hate people soo.. And it'll ruin my stickam evenings, :P hah!

I have a small library of media and when my sister visits her and her husband always pilfer some of my flicks.. ruins my organization and they usually take a chunk. Anyway all organized now n told'em to piss off when they wanted to take more. I've calculated exactly how much of each type I have as these are the things I collect and am interested in.

CDS: ok didn't count I lied cuz there are some everywhere right now. over 206 I know that.

DVDS: Standard ones 'loose'.. 108
-13 animation dvds
-8 trilogy sets
2 box sets of 6 dvds
season 4-6 Xena
Whole Hercules series 1-6 minus season 2
whole Chef! series 3 seasons
Whole Red Dward series, 8 seasons
Whole Tripping the Rift season 2
Sliders season 1-3
Due South season 1
Shogun
Jack of all Trades complete Series.. 1 1/2 seasons

GAMES: snes - bout 5 or 6
-9 gamecube
3 gba
bout 12 pc
47 ps2 games
aaannnd 36 psx games with like 20 demo discs.




Tis a modest collection but it forces me to need a library or entertainment room for it.

location: left of the middle mood: tired music: Ninja - 7 seconds of love